Your father and I sure have been busy! Insurance, doctor appointments, telling the relatives, it's all very stressful and very, very exciting. Everyone is so excited that you are on the way. I don't know if you will remember them when you're older or not, but your great-grandparents, my Grandma and Grandpa, are just absolutely ecstatic.

You will find in your life that anticipation of great things is a double edged sword, Little One, it inspires both great happiness and great stress. It makes one question themselves, their strengths and if they are strong enough, their weaknesses and if they shall be overcome by them, if they are ready or if they ever really will be. Many, many questions, but hold onto the happiness through it all, hold onto the HOPE that great opportunities give.

You, Little One, hold so much potential, even now tiny as you are. You are a blessing and a joy even though you make me nauseous more often than not. We love you so much and you will be so wonderful just because you are you.

Daddy's A Little Bonkers

Hey Kiddo,

Seems your father is very anxious about you being on the way. To be honest, I'm not really sure why. He's done a great job with Alexander, he's great with kids in general, and he's been looking forward to having someone like you on the way for a long time.

The day I told him my doctor had confirmed I was pregnant, he kind of spent the rest of the evening breathing heavily and randomly giggling. I thought it was utterly hilarious, but that's because I know what a great dad he is and is going to be. He really wants to do right by you.

Something about having kids makes a parent take a really hard look at themselves in the mirror. They see all of their faults and short comings and think "I don't want him/her to turn out like me". So, it's not just the idea of bringing a precious, adorable little baby into the world that is daunting, but all the self re-modeling involved, too. Perhaps that is what he's more nervous about.

Either way, I still think it's kind of cute to watch him going a  little crazy. It shows he cares. The more you will watch people, the more logic you will see behind their actions. It is not necessarily "logical" logic so much as it is "behavioral" logic, once you know the reasons behind the actions, everything makes sense.

So, to put it simply, your father is going crazy because he loves you. I laugh at his craziness because I have faith in him. And we both are doing our best to take care of you.

Another Shoot

Well, Little One,

I had my first photo shoot after finding out I'm pregnant. Ironically, instead of thinking "can he tell I'm pregnant" I kept thinking "can he see the baby". Weird, I know.

I can't seem to stop telling people the good news. I know things are tough now and are probably going to be tough for a while, but having another child in the house will be a wondrous adventure. I love you and I can't wait to meet you.

-Mom

Doctor Confirmed!

Well, baby, the doc confirmed it today; you're in there! I think your father has gotten over the shock at this point, now he's just panicking. :-) Overall, he is very excited, and very nervous. It's really rather cute.

I Positively Passed the Test

Okay, so after being moody, feeling bloated, and just overall feeling "weird" I took a pregnancy test today. I spent the next hour or so probably being in shock as I really don't remember much of it. I was late for work flustered, practically on the verge of fainting and immensely and overwhelmingly excited. I took another test when I got home that night. Same as the first: positive.

Hi you in there! I'm your Mom! I am so excited to have you growing in here. :-)